I woke up around nine in the a.m., which is sleeping in for me guys (takes a small bow, thank you thank you). I usually rise around six thirty and begin my morning ritual of meditation, writing, reading a few chapters of whichever book I currently have, and then doing an hour of yoga before getting down to the real business. However, with a reiki healing scheduled at noon, Sarah and I made the decision to do yoga afterwards. Other than that, my morning was right on schedule. I did veer a little off track to conduct the gratitude train. What’s the gratitude train you ask? Well homies, the gratitude train is simply a time I set aside every month or so to personally thank all the individuals who offer me love and support unconditionally. Majority of the time, the gratitude train travels via text message because I am aware that we all live busy lives. Every once in a while though, the gratitude train decides to kick it old school in the form of a handwritten letter, which I also hand deliver if possible.
With the final train leaving the station, it was time to pack up and go. Sarah and I hopped on the motorbike and cruised on over to the villa. We arrived unaware of what would happen but with an open mind to accept whatever did. We were greeted by Randy with a warm smile and copped a squat on the couch. She provided a brief overview of what reiki is but recommended allowing the process to speak for itself. I opted to go first because I wanted the time to write freely afterwards, for the reflection to be as raw and fresh as possible. I wanted the words to spew from my fingertips and directly onto the page. Sure enough, that is exactly what happened.
Now who is ready to take a step onto the spiritual side of life?
I followed Randy to the room where the healing would take place and laid face down on the bed. I picked the position I felt most comfortable in and gave the heads up that I was ready. She began by placing crystals along my spine, instructing me to breathe effortlessly and remain in the present moment as best as I could. If I were to become distracted, simply focus on my breath and reground myself. I, of course, began to over think my breathing. After a few minutes, I found a rhythm. Randy started the process by placing her palms on the bottom of my feet and every couple of minutes she would rotate her hands or shift to a different part of the body. As the healing continued, I became anxious out of the blue and my mind spun in a hundred different directions. I had totally lost control and struggled to refocus my attention to the present. I made several attempts to go a happier place within my mind, going through gratitude and compassion exercises and when that failed, I recited mantras. I began overthinking the entire process, thinking that I was destined fail when I barely even started. I could feel myself trying to take control of the situation, of the outcome even though I had no way of knowing what would happen. I mean, I am popping my reiki healing cherry here guys. I am most certainly unqualified to take control. Yet, on and on my mind ran.
Randy placed her hands over the small of my back and with one swift motion pulled her hands away with a soft clap. My mind went blank; as if a wave had washed over my thoughts and wiped them out clean. I felt at peace and completely bewildered at the same time. I could not regain my previous train of thought and it was the trippiest feeling ever. Whenever my mind would wander throughout the process, the anxious feeling followed directly behind it and Randy would make the same motion resulting in a sea of calmness. Eventually I flipped onto my back with the crystals being placed along my stomach and the same process occurred.
At the end of my session, I sat up and she asked me one question. “Do you aim to have control of your body and what surrounds you?” I nodded in agreement.
Now this is where shit gets real and my mind is blown even more, for everything she said hits the nail on the head. Plus, how on earth would she know? She hardly knew my name before I arrived, it's not like she could have crept on my life.
Through my aura and body’s vibrations, she could feel my anxiety and urge to take control. Anxiety is classified as a middle energetic emotional level and I am essentially exhausting my body’s fuels by trying to remain in control all of the time. I am allowing the sense of fear to play a larger role than is deemed necessary.
On a metaphysical level one kidney is fear and one kidney is wisdom, a yin and yang that require balance. My fear weighs heavier and overpowers my wisdom. I must learn to alleviate the fear and anxiety through communication via the throat chakra (chanting and using mantras during meditation), finding my pressure points on my wrist and neck, and breathing deeply. I must allow wisdom to rise to the occasion and push fear out of the way. I need to place my trust in the universe and know that it will in turn take care of me.
I exited the room on that quote above with a warm heart yet also completely dumbfounded and ready to spill everything onto the pages, which I obviously have. For those of you who are still unsure about what a reiki healing is, I will give you a little gist. Reiki is a Japanese technique used to restore physical and emotional well-being. Reiki roughly translates into “spiritually guided life force energy”. The process is administered through touch, by placing the hands along the body and on the areas that require cleansing. If you want to know more, book an appointment with a healer because Randy was absolutely right. There may be definitions and stories pasted all over the internet, but nothing compares to experiencing it firsthand. You will begin to ask the important questions and actively seek the answers. It was an eye opener for me and one I was blessed to experience. Have an open mind and just go for it.