Trust Love One More Time

 Photo courtesy of @strutz (jackstrutz.com)

Photo courtesy of @strutz (jackstrutz.com)

Good afternoon champs, it’s almost four and I am cranking out some work from home. There is a cool breeze blowing through the window and chick flick playing in front of me. Man oh man am I collecting the feels, haha. 

So let’s continue with the theme and write about love. Shall I do it in quote form followed by some wild writing? 

Have enough courage to trust love one more time & always one more time.
— Maya Angelou

when the world shatters beneath your feet after a love leaves, it’s often hard to collect yourself again. the days and nights feel longer, you lack the motivation to move and you constantly crave the presence of the individual gone. it’s as if a part of you is missing and you rack your brain to see what went wrong if it was something that could have been avoided only to eventually realize that this is just how love works. you don’t always get to spend the rest of your life with the person you fall in love with and that fear alone is enough to send someone running for the hills. it’s enough to build up a wall and block out any new love interest. then, out of nowhere, you meet someone by chance or fate or whatever it is that you believe in and you’re fucked because you’re hooked. because you’ve crossed paths with a person so intriguing and remarkable that you can’t help but take the leap. because the chance to be in love with a soul that dances so well with your own is a rare occurrence and worth the risk of being broken.

Sometimes you meet someone, and it’s so clear that the two of you, on some level belong together. As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different. You just work, whether you understand one another or you’re in love or you’re partners in crime. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don’t know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind luck, but it definitely makes me believe in something.
— Unknown

I don't really have anything to add or say, I've just always loved this quote and wanted to share it with the world. 

The greatest thing you will ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.
— Nat King Cole

the first time you told me loved me, i knew the words were to leave your lips before they did. i could tell by the way your eyes met mine and the way your smile refused to dwindle. yet, i wanted to hear the words, because i could tell they were sitting on the tip of your tongue waiting to take the leap, you were just nervous of how i would react. little did you know, that i knew i loved you a few weeks prior; i was simply a coward, unaware of what would become of our relationship if i did. it’s no new news to you that i struggle with letting you see my raw emotions, yet i wonder if you know why. i don't know if i ever told you, but right when we started dating, i sought out my ex. i asked him what i did wrong in the relationship because i always felt like i should take the blame for why things ended. he told me the way in which i loved was intense, that i needed to tone myself back because people weren’t ready for the love i had to offer. i don’t know why it never occurred to me, that maybe, just maybe he wasn’t ready for that universe that i am. you’ve done nothing but show me compassion and patience as i worked through the damaged bits of myself and continue to seek out who i am and what my role in this world is. i don’t know, from the moment we met there was something about you that intrigued me, as if our souls were old friends who finally had the privilege of meeting again after all this time. the idea of breaking down the wall i had unconsciously built around my heart scared me shitless because it meant i was to run the risk of experiencing an earth shattering heartbreak again. yet, you're worth it because i have yet to meet another human like you. 

 

With that, I am outtie five thousand. Keep on keepin' on champs! 

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